From my Hart: Drawing a blank

Happy Monday everyone! Today I’m off work, as I hope many of you are. Happy President’s Day! I’ve been going, going, going recently, and when I logged on today to see what I could post, I was met with four half finished blogs and my mind drawing a blank.

Since I vowed to keep things real with y’all, I decided to just be real. I’m drawing a blank. I had felt really moved to write a lot of posts about kindness, and I feel those served me well. Now, I feel as if I am in a resting period, processing everything that’s been going on.

What’s going on?

For the past month, my family and I have been sick. It started with the flu, morphed into sinus infections, bronchitis, and now strep throat for me. I also found out Friday into Saturday that I am allergic to penicillin…. huzzah -.-

Graduate School

Between all of that, I’ve been getting my butt in gear to finish up my last few classes of graduate school! I decided to take a break during my lag in employment, so I will now be graduating this December! I love learning and writing, but I am also very excited to finish this chapter in my life- cross the sage, and get my Masters.

Relationship

My boyfriend and I have been having real adult conversations with one another about our future. Things like marriage, homes, goals… you know, the usual. One thing we’ve both realized is that him and I are doing this. As he put it so eloquently, at the end of the day its us living with our decisions, so we have to figure things out. 0_o adulting can be scary.

We are both blessed with wonderful families, and so many people who care for us. The reason I share this with you is because maybe you are trying to make life decisions, and are worried about what others think of your decision or may want you to do. It’s a balance between respect an independence: it can be met.

Food

Thanks to a co-worker, I’ve gone starch free. This has been super difficult, mainly because I am living with my family who is not starch free. I will say, when I get my crap together and plan my meals out, it’s very easy to cut out things like breads, pastas, potatoes, etc. Did you know banana’s are a starch? I do now.

I feel great, I’m down eight pounds, and sleep so much better at night. My body is processing my food as energy instead of storing it up. It’s been interesting, but so long as I’m eating “real foods,” things go pretty smoothly overall! Eventually I will reintroduce good starches, like sweet potatoes, back in. However, there is no need for me to eat three doughnuts in a day, or reach for a starch filled snack that won’t last, when I could have something better for me.

Personally

All of that being said, I’m really being tested with my patience recently. If you know me personally, you know I have about a teaspoon of patience. It’s a shame, and something I want to fix. I need to realize in the moment to count to ten and ground myself… because Lord knows, this is where I fall apart.

If you’ve got some patience growing tips, please share haha. It’s a work in progress. I’m just thankful my boyfriend doesn’t give up on me, he also knows exactly how to ground me, which is a miracle. I’ll get there, one step at a time.

What’s next?

Great question! Graduate school starts up in March, so my posts may go down to once a week, depending on how well I am able to balance two jobs and my school work.

You guys always come up with the best post ideas; I encourage you to let me know of any topics you’d like to hear. It’s my hope, that we all take some time to process now and again. It’s actually kind of relaxing to just sit, and be. Happy Monday y’all!

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